July 10, 2004
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It’s high time to document this apathyyyy, the Britishisms everywhere, the cutting short of a tiresome-though-well-intended-but-still
outing to talk about Blake, everything. I have half the mind to jet off
to Palm Springs week after next with my freshly-returned-from-France
soulsister to reunite with Zach, who assures me twice daily that at
least one of his five Harvard roomies will be enraptured by my
Eliotobsessed ways, and Miguel, who is going to take Chicago by storm
by means of Freudian analysis and flashy Ferragamo loafers. I do think
this Tuesday’s South Carolina Sojourn will do the trick, if I don’t
murder my father en route to the Partridge Family’s Annual Myrtle Beach
Debauchery/run out of reading material, which isn’t about to happen,
damned anxiety of influence, among other anxieties. Then it’s back to
grant proposals, and oh no!, no one to discuss sex and poetry (how
redundant) with at 4 a.m. I just realized [JULES WILL BE IN CHINA], so
I’ll be watching the sun rise with just a Red Bull (have lost almost
all my taste for tea) and then reading Goethe when I should be
sleeping/working on funding reports/learning Greek, French, Italian,
and if you’d like me to go on, German, Czech.Erin’s house,
that airy mecca of unsalted pretzels and pretty pool liner-induced
serenity, has been the perfect place to escape to–we take long bicycle
rides at dusk then drive around the tiny town I grew up in blasting the
Moulin Rouge soundtrack and basking in the glow of all things Milton. I
am blessed to have a friend who invites me over clad in track pants to
collapse on her bed after delivering a diatribe on the sticky situation
the agency I’m employed by is currently ensnared in, but not before
handing me collected essays turned right to the Addison I’ve been
needing to read. I can then lazily reopen that never-ending
conversation on aesthetics or not.Other phrases that
characterise these past few days and to which all conversations,
thoughts, and unfortunately-not-uncontrollable fits of laughter come
back would be The Wordsworthian Poet’s Plight, Princeton: That
Venerable Institution!, and BodyElectric, the best new adjective ever.
And so ends my short spree of Oxford Commalessness. I wish it could be
symbolic of overcoming this The Graduate-esque limbolike state, but
know better.Still, it does help to know your ex-loverrr’s stealing from Abercrombie as all this (now that’s a stretch) unfolds.
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Wannabe-cryptic Insertion of Keats and Maniacal Laughter:
O Solitude! if I must with thee dwell
O SOLITUDE! if I must with thee dwell,
Let it not be among the jumbled heap
Of murky buildings; climb with me the steep,—
Nature’s observatory—whence the dell,
Its flowery slopes, its river’s crystal swell,
May seem a span; let me thy vigils keep
’Mongst boughs pavillion’d, where the deer’s swift leap
Startles the wild bee from the fox-glove bell.
But though I’ll gladly trace these scenes with thee,
Yet the sweet converse of an innocent mind,
Whose words are images of thoughts refin’d,
Is my soul’s pleasure; and it sure must be
Almost the highest bliss of human-kind,
When to thy haunts two kindred spirits flee.
Comments (20)
Once again, a superb entry written by a lovely lady.
I’m gonna miss Jules, too.
I feel as though we have fallen a little apart…I haven’t had a really great convo with you in a while…
THAT’S BECAUSE I’M OBSESSED WITH SEX!!!!
13 hours ahead means i will set myself daily and sit the self in front of the screen accordingly at the appointed hour. my relatives won’t let me prolong the insomnia anyway, as it’d be evarrr so bizarre. it shall be a delightful respite, rawr.
JULES, KEATSGASM!!!!
keatsgasm indeed. you’re a brunette now?!!!! (yes, those were in fact necessary and not extraneous.) roman beauty with a gallic streak? it’s marvelous.
hi =P i’ll be attending MHC in the fall…drop me a line
sarah, save me from what i want.
Jules, save me from life without you!!! I’m e-mailing you, darling
props to my new neighbor ^.~
you have no excuse to not update. unless you have a new boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyfriend…?
where did you go? i hope your summer is LoveLy.
oh, and a question…on jeopardy (yes, a re-run) one of the “answers” was Yeats blah blah blah… Good ole Alec, however, pronounced Yeats as “Yeeeets.” Is this right? I feel as if I have lost my mind. I thought it was “YAYtes.” Any “questions”?
FLOAT ON, FLOAT ON AND WE’LL ALL FLOAT ON…….
FLOAT ON, FLOAT ON….
Your sullen and camera-red eyes (well, eye) are (well, is) peering right at the declaration of apathy, which is nicely appropriate. Maybe you could change your icon to fit every xanga entry (e.g., a picture of a heart… feeling good… dripping pitch and made of wood), cleavage preferably intact! Tactless, yes, but you asked me to make this comment, so here is an emoticon of a person sticking his tongue out:
*Don’t let it fool you,* though; it’s actually just a colon and a hyphen and a capital “P.”
O HYMEN! O hymenee!
Why do you tantalize me thus?
O why sting me for a swift moment only?
Why can you not continue DRIPPING PITCH? O why do you now cease AND MADE OF WOOD?
Is it because, if you continued beyond the swift moment, you would soon certainly kill me LIKE YOU KILLED MY BABY WHO HAS ANIMALS LIVING IN HIM?
His hands and knees sooo didn’t feel cold and wet on the grass to me. I’m undoing the damage dactylic hexametrically.
Vesper adest, iuvenes, consurgite: Vesper Olympo
exspectata diu vix tandem lumina tollit.
surgere iam tempus, iam pinguis linquere mensas,
iam veniet virgo, iam dicetur hymenaeus.
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!………………..5
Cernitis, innuptae, iuvenes? consurgite contra;
nimirum Oetaeos ostendit Noctifer ignes.
sic certest; viden ut perniciter exsiluere?
non temere exsiluere: canent quod vincere par est.
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!………………10
non facilis nobis, aequales, palma parata est:
aspicite, innuptae secum ut meditata requirunt.
non frustra meditantur: habent memorabile quod sit;
nec mirum, penitus quae tota mente laborant.
nos alio mentes, alio divisimus aures;………………………………15
iure igitur vincemur: amat victoria curam.
quare nunc animos saltem convertite vestros;
dicere iam incipient, iam respondere decebit.
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!
Hespere, quis caelo fertur crudelior ignis?………………………..20
qui natam possis complexu avellere matris,
complexu matris retinentem avellere natam,
et iuveni ardenti castam donare puellam.
quid faciunt hostes capta crudelius urbe?
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!……………….25
Hespere, quis caelo lucet iucundior ignis?
qui desponsa tua firmes conubia flamma,
quae pepigere viri, pepigerunt ante parentes,
nec iunxere prius quam se tuus extulit ardor.
quid datur a divis felici optatius hora?………………………………30
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!
Hesperus e nobis, aequales, abstulit unam
…
namque tuo adventu vigilat custodia semper.
nocte latent fures, quos idem saepe revertens,
Hespere, mutato comprendis nomine Eous………………………..35
at lubet innuptis ficto te carpere questu.
quid tum, si carpunt, tacita quem mente requirunt?
Hymen o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee
ut flos in saeptis secretus nascitur hortis,
ignotus pecori, nullo convolsus aratro,………………………………40
quem mulcent aurae, firmat sol, educat imber,
multi illum pueri, multae optavere puellae:
idem cum tenui carptus defloruit ungui,
nulli illum pueri, nullae optavere puellae:
sic virgo, dum intacta manet, dum cara suis est; …………………45
cum castum amisit polluto corpore florem,
nec pueris iucunda manet, nec cara puellis.
Hymen, o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!
ut vidua in nudo vitis quae nascitur arvo,
numquam se extollit, numquam mitem educat uvam,……………50
sed tenerum prono deflectens pondere corpus
iam iam contingit summum radice flagellum;
hanc nulli agricolae, nulli coluere iuvenci:
at si forte eadem est ulmo coniuncta marito,
multi illam agricolae, multi coluere iuvenci:………………………….55
sic virgo dum intacta manet, dum inculta senescit;
cum par conubium maturo tempore adepta est,
cara viro magis et minus est invisa parenti.
et tu ne pugna cum tali coniuge, virgo.
non aequom est pugnare, pater cui tradidit ipse,………………….60
ipse pater cum matre, quibus parere necesse est.
virginitas non tota tua est, ex parte parentum est,
tertia pars patrist, pars est data tertia matri,
tertia sola tua est: noli pugnare duobus,
qui genero sua iura simul cum dote dederunt……………………….65
Hymen, o Hymenaee, Hymen ades o Hymenaee!
Imperforate hymen is at the extreme of a spectrum of variations in hymenal configuration. Variations in the embryologic development of the hymen are common and result in fenestrations, septa, bands, microperforations, anterior displacement, and differences in rigidity and/or elasticity of the hymenal tissue. Inspection of the external genitalia and anus are important components of the physical examination of the female neonate. While this examination can and should be accomplished by the pediatrician, the observant delivering obstetrician can learn much about the normal variations in genital configuration by examining the female neonate in the delivery room, keeping in mind the influence and structural changes induced by maternal estrogens. Under this influence, the labia majora are plump, the hymen is elastic and often lax and fimbriated, and the mucosal surfaces (ie, introitus, fossa navicularis) are pale pink.
Problem: In spite of the recommendations for early inspection of the external genitalia, variations in hymenal anatomy typically escape diagnosis until the time of menarche. Different normal variants in hymenal configuration are described, varying from the common annular, to crescentic, to navicular (with an anteriorly displaced hymenal orifice). Rarely, hymenal variations may be clinically significant before menarche. In the case of a navicular configuration, urinary complaints (eg, dribbling, retention, urinary tract infections [UTIs]) may result. Sometimes, a cribriform or navicular configuration to the hymen can be associated with retention of vaginal secretions and prolongation of the common condition of a mixed bacterial vulvovaginitis.
Imperforate hymen in infancy or childhood
An infant or child may be thought to have an imperforate hymen. Careful examination with pressure applied to the fourchette may reveal a microperforation, sometimes with an anteriorly placed opening just beneath the urethra. Capraro described a surgical technique similar to a perineotomy to correct such a defect; however, in the asymptomatic patient, waiting until puberty is suggested before deciding whether such a technique is necessary. The hymenal changes that result from estrogenization (increased elasticity and fimbriation) may preclude the need for surgery.
Sexual abuse
Accurate description of the morphology and integrity of the hymen is critical in the diagnosis of female sexual abuse. Concerns about hymenal disruption and lacerations associated with sexual abuse with digital or penile penetration have led to discussions of the normal hymenal diameter. At one time, the diameter of the hymenal opening (measured within the hymenal ring) was proposed to be approximately 1 mm for each year of age. Clearly, this guideline does not apply in the neonatal stage, when maternal estrogens lead to an elastic hymen; however, in the prepubertal stage, marked enlargement, according to this guideline, should prompt consideration of the possibility of abuse. An important difficulty with this “rule of thumb” is that the degree of the child’s relaxation and comfort with both the examination and the examiner clearly affects measurements, as does the type of measuring device used.
Experts in sexual abuse assessment have used unaided visual examination and colposcopy to examine the integrity of the hymenal ring. Lacerations through the hymen into the fossa navicularis and introitus suggest a penetrating injury. Frequently, sexual abuse evaluations are conducted at some time remote from the immediate injury; thus, healed or healing lacerations are noted.
Muram concluded that the use of the colposcope by an experienced examiner adds little to the evaluation. In addition, Muram proposed a scale that the examiner can use to evaluate physical findings as normal, abnormal and nonspecific, abnormal and suggestive of abuse, and definitive for abuse. The latter category includes only the situation in which sperm are found on examination.
Anatomic anomalies
Consider anatomic anomalies that can be confused with imperforate hymen in the differential diagnosis. These anomalies include the following:
<LI>Acquired labial adhesions
<LI>Obstructing or partially obstructing vaginal septa (longitudinal or transverse)
<LI>Vaginal cyst
<LI>Vaginal agenesis (Mayer-Rokitansky-Kuster-Hauser syndrome) with or without the presence of a uterus or functional endometrium
<LI>Androgen insensitivity (testicular feminization)
Frequency: Imperforate hymen probably is the most frequent obstructive anomaly of the female genital tract, but estimates of its frequency vary from 1 case per 1000 population to 1 case per 10,000 population. McCann et al (1990) examined 93 girls, aged 10 months to 10 years, to collect normative data on genital anatomy in nonabused prepubertal girls and found 1 child with an imperforate hymen (1.2%) and 2 children with hymenal septa (2.5%).
Etiology: Imperforate hymen and related genital tract anomalies result from abnormal or incomplete embryologic development.
Pathophysiology: The genital tract develops during embryogenesis, from 3 weeks’ gestation to the second trimester. The initial development of both the male and female genital tracts occurs concurrently and is referred to as the indifferent stage of development.
<LI>Paired wolffian (mesonephric) ducts connect the mesonephric kidney to the cloaca. The metanephric or true kidney derives from the ureteric bud (arising from the mesonephric duct) at about the fifth embryonic week.
<LI>The paramesonephric or müllerian ducts can be identified during the sixth week of embryologic development and lie lateral to the wolffian ducts until they reach the caudal end of the mesonephros, where they come toward the midline.
<LI>During the seventh week, the urorectal septum forms to separate the rectum from the urogenital sinus.
<LI>By the ninth week, the müllerian ducts move caudally to reach the urogenital sinus, forming the uterovaginal canal and inserting into the urogenital sinus.
By the 12th week, the paired müllerian ducts have fused into a single tube (ie, primitive uterovaginal canal). Two solid evaginations form from the distal aspects of the müllerian tubercle from the sinovaginal bulbs (of urogenital sinus origin) or vaginal plate. The initial or cephalad portion of the müllerian ducts forms the fimbria and fallopian tubes; the more distal segment forms the uterus and upper vagina. The canalization of the paramesonephric ducts and/or upper vagina joins with the vaginal plate, which canalizes beginning caudally and creates the lower vagina. By the fifth month of gestation, the canalization of the vagina is complete. The hymen itself is formed from the proliferation of the sinovaginal bulbs, becoming perforate before birth.
Gonadal development
The development of the gonads occurs from the migration of primordial germ cells to the genital ridge, while the genital tract itself develops from the müllerian ducts (paramesonephric ducts), urogenital sinus, and vaginal plate. Thus, anomalies of the vagina, hymen, and uterus are not accompanied by abnormalities of ovarian development, and hormonal and endocrinologic function is without abnormality, leading to expected pubertal breast development.
Because the mesodermal layer contributes to the development of the kidneys, gonads, and ductal structures, defects or insults in embryologic development may result in congenital defects of the kidneys that accompany abnormalities of the vagina and uterus.
The lining of the urethra and urinary bladder derives from endoderm, and the urogenital sinus forms the urethra and vestibule in females. The ectoderm fuses with the endoderm to contribute to the patency and canalization of the genital tract. Defects in this process lead to fusion failures and imperforate and obstruction defects.
Familial occurrence
Familial occurrence is reported, and screening by history or examination of family members is warranted. Dominant transmission (either sex-linked or autosomal) and sibships suggesting a recessive mode of inheritance are described. The inheritance of müllerian defects likely is polygenic or multifactorial, although some syndromes of heritable disorders are described with associated genital and nongenital anomalies.
Anomalies of the female reproductive tract
Anomalies of the female reproductive tract can result from agenesis or hypoplasia, vertical fusion and/or canalization defects, lateral fusion and/or duplication abnormalities, or failure of resorption, resulting in septa.
Clinical:
Diagnosis in infancy or childhood
The diagnosis is sometimes made in infancy. The patient presents with a bulging yellow-gray mass at or beyond the introitus. The presence of an abdominal mass has been described in association with urinary obstruction.
Diagnosis has been made in utero with obstetrical ultrasonography. Ultrasonography is an essential first step in diagnosis, precluding unwise and unplanned surgical intervention with resultant injury to the urethra.
Diagnosis and surgical repair in puberty and menarche
Observation with a planned hymenotomy during puberty is a reasonable course of action in most cases, assuming no urinary symptoms or obstruction is present. More typically, a mucocele is not present. If a patient is diagnosed with an asymptomatic imperforate hymen in infancy or childhood, the optimal time for surgical repair is during puberty and prior to menarche. During this time, surgical repair prevents the typical situation in which a young woman presents with intermittent abdominal pelvic pain, which can become severe over the course of several months.
Urinary pressure and even retention with dilation of upper urinary tracts from obstruction is not uncommon. Frequently, vaginal and rectal pressure is present. Severe constipation and low-back pain are described as presenting symptoms. The laborlike menstrual cramps may be severe and cyclic, although the cyclic nature of the symptoms may not be apparent easily or immediately to the young woman or her family.
Unfortunately, the typical findings at diagnosis include a large collection of blood within the uterus (hematometra) and an even larger collection of blood within the distensible vagina (hematocolpos). Additional findings may include blood-filled fallopian tubes (hematosalpinges) and signs of retrograde menses, occasionally to the point of the development of intra-abdominal endometriosis and severe adhesions. The classic teaching is that endometriosis associated with obstructive anomalies resolves spontaneously and does not cause problems with subsequent pain and infertility compared to endometriosis arising spontaneously; however, this assertion is anecdotal rather than evidence based.
Differential diagnosis
The differential diagnosis of an imperforate hymen includes many conditions, some rare and others relatively common.
Labial adhesions
The presence of acquired labial adhesions in a prepubertal girl is a common situation that often is confused with absence of the vagina. Labial adhesions are not congenital and result from agglutination due to inflammation. Small areas of labial adhesions can be managed expectantly. Extensive labial adhesions or those associated with such symptoms as recurrent UTIs, urinary dribbling, or recurrent vulvovaginitis can be managed easily using the topical application of estrogen cream for 2-6 weeks. Such treatment results in the marked thinning of the adhesions, often with spontaneous resolution. Adhesions that do not resolve completely over this interval but are thin and translucent almost always can be managed in the physician’s office with gentle manual separation, after the application of topical lidocaine jelly or prilocaine (eutectic mixture of local anesthetics [EMLA]) cream.
Separation of thick adhesions is possible to accomplish in the office with a child who can be restrained; however, this procedure ultimately is counterproductive because the examination frequently is difficult. General anesthesia in an operative setting may be required.
The biggest problem in managing labial adhesions is that recurrent adhesions are common because the epithelial surfaces are damaged during separation. Parents or caretakers must be instructed on how to ensure that the child maintains excellent perineal hygiene and avoids vulvovaginitis. The application of a topical emollient on a daily basis helps to prevent recurrences until the endogenous pubertal estrogen stimulation alleviates the risk.
Labial adhesions may be confused with posterior labial fusion encountered in congenital adrenal hyperplasia and may be differentiated by careful physical examination with attention to the presence or absence of clitoromegaly.
Hymenal obstruction
In the case of incomplete hymenal obstruction due to a cribriform hymen or hymenal band, the typical presenting complaint is difficulty inserting a tampon. Anatomic variations must be distinguished from the involuntary vaginismus or contraction of the perineal musculature or levator ani muscles, which can be associated with the learning process of tampon insertion, becoming a vicious cycle when persistent insertion is attempted without success and causing pain.
Hymenotomy occasionally may be indicated in the case of a rigid inelastic hymen, particularly for young women who are athletes (eg, swimmers, divers, gymnasts, cheerleaders). A reasonable alternative to surgical correction involves the use of progressive self-digital dilation in a motivated young woman. In athletes with a rigid hymen, an evaluation for possible hypoestrogenism associated with vigorous physical activity should be considered; if present, estrogen replacement improves the hymenal characteristics and increases hymenal elasticity.
Hymenal bands
This condition typically is amenable to division using a local anesthetic in the office; however, the young woman’s age and tolerance of such an office procedure must be predicted and judged. Her degree of motivation for tampon use or intercourse impacts the timing at which she requests such a procedure. A typical presenting history of an individual with a hymenal band is the ability to insert a tampon but extreme difficulty in removing it (eg, patient in whom the tampon string became wrapped around the hymenal band, leading to marked edema and pain when removal was attempted).
Obstructing longitudinal or transverse septa
These conditions require careful preoperative evaluation to define the anatomy. The repair of such complicated anomalies usually should be left to gynecologists at a tertiary care center where these cases are not a rarity. MRI usually is the criterion standard for defining the anatomy.
Vaginal agenesis or androgen insensitivity
The evaluation and management of vaginal agenesis or androgen insensitivity syndrome is beyond the scope of this article, but these conditions should be considered in the differential diagnosis. These patients should be referred to a gynecologist who specializes in adolescents. The options for creation of a neovagina are operative, such as a McIndoe procedure with the creation of a neovagina, or nonoperative, using progressively larger Lucite dilators.
omgomgwtf I *totally* said:
Walt Whitman is annoying the [effective] fuck out of me and it’s all your fault, Mark Grant, as usual. NOT COOL.
at 4:11 a.m. and just accidentally deleted it. There goes the cornerstore of our incredibly cohesive argument… that and the fact that the universe isn’t actually shaped exactly like the earth.
Also, it now appears that you switched spontaneously into Hymenmode, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I so win.
FINE BUT I AM TOTALLY WITHDRAWING MY E-PROPS NOW